“You say that now Ashley, because you have her. I doubt you would say that if you two weren’t together and I told you that I liked her”, she says shooting daggers at me with her eyes.

            “Kyla, I can’t believe you would say that”, I tell her truly hurt.

            “Ashley, you have a reputation”, she says.

            “And you know that is bullshit. I put on this badass act for the press and my music, but I would think that you would know better than anyone that, that’s not the real me”, I say getting upset.

            “Okay, what about girl after girl”, she asks me and I hang my head knowing she’s right. I do have a bad reputation when it comes down to my “dating” habits, if you can call them that.

            “I admit I done have the best dating record, but when I started sleeping with your friends I didn’t realize that it meant more than that to them. I didn’t have real feelings for them and I know that’s horrible for me to say but it’s the truth. I really do have feelings for Spencer and I don’t want to hurt her and I don’t want to hurt you either. What can  I do to make this right”, I ask her.

            “I want to ask to you break up with her so bad”, she tells me looking down, shaking her head.

            “I couldn’t do that”, I say.

            “Why not? You’ve never had a problem with it before”, she says in a condescending tone.

            “Because, I have REAL feelings for her. And I really like her”, I tell her. I might even love her. Holy shit where did that come from?

            “I can’t ask you to do that anyway.”

            “Kyla, I want you to be okay with it. I need you to be okay with it”, I tell her.

            “And if I’m not”, she asks.

            “It’ll be really hard”, I say.

            “But you wouldn’t break up with her”, she asks.

            “No”, I say simply.

            “Fine. I can try that’s the best I can give you right now. It’s hard to see your sister with the girl you want”, she says looking me straight in the eye.